When I last felt completely uninhibited sexually, it happened on the night of August 26, 2018, at approximately 11:45 PM. At that moment, I was lying naked next to my partner while she kissed my neck passionately and caressed my chest. She whispered dirty things into my ear, which heightened my senses even more than her touch. After a few minutes of foreplay, we engaged in sexual intercourse for about an hour before falling asleep together afterward. It's been almost four years since that night, but I still remember how amazing it felt to let go of all inhibitions and just enjoy myself fully without any worry or guilt.
The previous day had been incredibly stressful due to work, so when my partner suggested getting takeout from our favorite Chinese restaurant and watching a movie, I didn't hesitate to agree. We ordered food, drank some wine, and snuggled under a warm blanket on the couch. When I noticed she was getting comfortable and relaxed, I knew it was time to make a move. My heart began pounding and my palms were sweating, but I told myself to calm down and just focus on enjoying the experience instead of dwelling on what might happen if anything went wrong. Once we got into bed later that night, everything came naturally - we weren't shy about exploring each other's bodies and there was no rush to finish. Every touch was electric and every moan was thrilling. As we lay side-by-side afterwards, I could tell we were both satisfied and content with our decision to be completely open with one another sexually.
To feel truly uninhibited during intimacy requires trust and comfort between partners, along with physical and mental preparation beforehand. For me personally, this means taking time to relax by meditating or exercising prior to engaging in sexual activities. It also involves communicating openly about boundaries beforehand so neither party is caught off guard. Ultimately though, letting go of fear or judgement allows for maximum pleasure and satisfaction during such moments. In the future, I hope to continue creating opportunities like these where I can connect deeply with my partner while feeling entirely free within my own skin without any expectations placed upon us as individuals.